None of them are easy.
Some are quite terrifying.
When you ask a mom, “which aspect of mothering is the most difficult?” No two answers would be the same.
For me, being the spiritual leader of my children scares me to death.
Since my husband does not identify with any religion, the spiritual leader role defaults to me.
Honestly, I don’t think I’ve ever felt so unqualified in my life. My feelings of inadequacy regarding homeschooling are nothing compared to how I feel about leading my children spiritually.
At first I harbored a lot of resentment toward my husband for forcing me into this position. I was bitter and convinced my children were doomed. I worried endlessly, but worrying was getting me no where.
I was convinced that I couldn’t lead my children to Christ because it took me 26 years to find Him myself and He so gently reminded me that I didn’t find Him sooner because I wasn’t looking for Him.
Having only become a Christian three short years ago, I still have so much to learn. I love God, but I’m still learning how to be in love with God. I still struggle to put Him at the center of my days. My first instinct is to try to do it all on my own and fail before I fall to me knees in prayer.
But God is so faithful. He is constantly leading me back to Him. He is showing me that as He leads me, I can lead them.
I’m realizing that I don’t have to be a Biblical scholar to influence the spiritual development of my children. I can simply bring them into my journey of coming closer to God. I let them see me read my Bible. We do daily devotions. We talk about God and how He loves us. We sing worship songs together. We pray. We admire His creation together. I let them see me mess up and ask for forgiveness. We extend grace and love our neighbors. We volunteer in order to learn the importance of serving others.
I teach my daughters what I know to be true and they teach me the most important aspect of all, how to love God with a child-like faith; an unbiased, genuine, unfaltering love of their Creator.
I may have not read the entire Bible. I don’t have very many scriptures memorized. I may not even be able to recall every Bible story, but I do love my God and I believe His Word is true. I also love my children with all my heart and I know the importance of a Godly mother. These are the only qualifications I need.
I will do my best and God will do the rest.
Are you the spiritual leader in your home? How are you leading your children to a relationship with Christ?